Feeling.

It has been a long time since I have felt the way I do today.
I have fallen in love again, and it is amazing.
New love. New hopes. New dreams. New desires.


There aren't many words that can describe the way I feel,
but I can tell you that I am honestly happy.


At first I was scared.
Not necessarily to fall in love again,
but just because it was new and different.
But then we became inseparable.
We have spent every day together for the past six months,
and I could not be less tired of him.


I miss him when he walks to the kitchen
just to get a glass of orange juice in the morning,
and I miss him when he goes into the bathroom to brush his teeth at night.
He is not afraid to tell me his every thought,
and I am not afraid to tell him mine.
He tickles me until I cannot breathe,
and I chase him through the house.
He does everything in his power to make me happy,
yet he knows that he does not even have to try.
I fall asleep in his arms every night,
and I would not trade that for the world.
He is everything that I want in a man,
and he is my best friend.


And as I lay here next to him in bed,
listening to the rain and his loud snores,
I realize what I want in life;
him, and nothing more.

Learning

I've learned-
that you cannot stop loving.
Once you find love, you will always love.

I've learned -
that no matter how much I care,
some people just don't care back.

I've learned -
that it takes years to build up trust,
and only seconds to destroy it.

But if the other is willing to gain it back,

you must allow them to do so.

I've learned -
that it's not what you have in your life,
but who you have in your life that counts.

I've learned -
that everyone makes mistakes,

but you must be willing to forgive those mistakes,

in order to gain forgiveness when you make them.

I've learned -
that you shouldn't compare yourself to others,

but be yourself and be proud of who you are.

I've learned -
that it's not what happens in a relationship that matters,

it is how you handle it.

I've learned -
that you can do something in an instant
that will give you heartache for life.

But you must move on with no regrets,

because it is the past that makes you who you are today.

I've learned -
that everyone has their own opinion,

and hearing someone else’s

is just as important as voicing your own.

I've learned -
that it is hard deciding what you want in life,

but once you figure it out,

it is up to you to make it happen.

I've learned -
that it's a lot easier for some to overreact than to think,

but you must understand and not overreact yourself.

I've learned -
that you should never go to sleep angry with the one you love,

and always tell the person you are angry with that you do love them,

no matter what it was that made you angry.

I've learned -
that you have to want to succeed to succeed,

and you should never give up on your dreams.

Only you can make them a reality.

I've learned -
that we are responsible for what we do,
no matter how we feel.

There is always a decision made, right or wrong,

and you must accept the consequences.

I've learned -
that either you control your attitude,
or it controls you,

and also others around you.

I've learned -
that regardless of how rough a relationship may be at times,
it is what made you fall in love with the person in the first place

that should always bring you back together.

I've learned -
that my best friends and I can do anything
or nothing and have the best time.

I've learned -
that being with someone for a long time can seem hard,

but if it is true love, it seems as if you never were without them.

I've learned -
that sometimes when you are angry
you have the right to be angry,
but that doesn't give you the right to be mean.

I've learned -
that true friendship continues to grow,
even over the longest distance.

I've learned -
that maturity has more to do with
what types of experiences you have had
and what you have learned from them,
rather than the number of birthdays

you have celebrated.

I've learned -
that our background and circumstances
may have influenced who we are,
but we are responsible for who we become.

I've learned -
that if you truly love someone, let them leave,

and if they return, it was meant to be.

I've learned -
that just because two people argue a lot,
it doesn't mean they don't love each other,

and it doesn't mean that their relationship will not last.

I've learned -
that sometimes you have to put
the individual ahead of their actions.

I've learned -
that two people can look at the exact same thing,
and see something totally different.

I’ve learned-

that you should never do something to someone

that you would not want done to you in return.

I've learned -
those who are honest with themselves,
get farther in life.

I've learned -
that even when you think

you have no good advice to give,
when a friend needs your help,

you know exactly what to say.

I've learned -
that writing what I feel rather than saying it,

gets the point across to certain people better.

I've learned -
that just because you have a good reputation,
it does not make you a decent human being.

I've learned -
that it's hard to determine where to draw the line
between being nice and not hurting people's feelings,
and standing up for what you believe in.

I’ve learned-

that being too nice and approachable,

is not always a good thing.

I’ve learned-

that you should never bring up the past,

people are always aware of it,

and do not need to be reminded of their past faults

if they have made up for them.

I’ve learned-

that people are people,

and you should love them for who they are.

I’ve learned-

that God does not see what humans see.

He only sees what lies in your heart.

And we should try to do the same.

MOST RECENTLY-

I've learned-

that you can not force someone to be sorry,

they can only be sorry if they want to be.

And sometimes you must give them time to realize they are sorry

rather than to get upset that they are not sorry right away.

I've learned-

that it is okay to be confused, or nervous, or worried,

everyone gets that way at times.

And that maybe sometimes people come to you when

they are feeling that way, not for advice,

but just for someone to listen.

I've learned-

that being in love can be hard,

but being mad at the one you love can be harder.

I've learned-

that sometimes people are more rational

than you give them credit for,

and you must appreciate the times when they are.

I've learned-

that you must always compromise,

nothing will ever be perfect,

and if you do not realize this,

you will always be wanting more.

I've learned-

that although life may be hard at times,

I am sure am lucky.

But mostly,

I've learned-

that sometimes I don't remember what I've learned,

and I do not take my own advice.

I should try harder to do so.

And I will.

“The Lord does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.” 1 Samuel 16:7

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Love

Forever is a long time; for everlasting time. Some are afraid of committing to the idea of forever, but accepting the reality of forever, and not being apprehensive of committing, is part of what true love is about.

It is not always immediate however that each lover will fully commit, and in seeking true love you must understand that love is patient.

And during this acceptance, you must realize that all relationships have their seemingly perfect, and imperfect times, but during these times you must know that you have to be loving and understanding, and know that love is kind.

Once you have both reached this confidence, you must never desire what you see, but instead be more than grateful for what you have, because love does not envy.

You must realize how amazing is the love you share and remind each other every single day how thankful you are to have such love, but you must never take it for granted and always know that love does not boast.

Everyone has their flaws, and it is accepting another's flaws that makes love real. But you must understand that part of a relationship entails fixing certain aspects of your personality to better your relationship for each other, not being arrogant to the idea of change, and realizing that love is not proud.

Portraying your feelings to the one you love is very vital to a healthy relationship. Even if you do not understand why they may feel a certain way, you must show effort in trying to fix whatever it is they are upset about, rather than to deny that it may be your fault that they are feeling this way. Thus, you must understand that love is not rude.

When in love, you must realize that all things will eventually become shared. Problems will be shared, feelings will be shared, material possessions will be shared, and eventually finances will be shared. You must never be selfish and you must always know that love is not self-seeking.

There are always going to be things that will bother you about the other person, it is inevitable. You must learn to accept the fact that no one is perfect, and you must not be short tempered with the one you love. Things, whether little or big, you must understand that love is not easily angered.

There may be tension that arises within a relationship, and you may not always agree. You must understand that you can not always be right, and being wrong once in a while is acceptable to say the least, but when you are right, you must not be boastful because love keeps no record of rights, and more importantly, love keeps no record of wrongs.

Everyone makes mistakes every once in a while and you must accept the fact of human error. If they truly love you, they will understand how much they hurt you, and will always regret doing what they have done. That regret is punishment enough, you do not need to constantly remind them of their faults, because they themselves will always be aware of them, and they will become stronger because of it. Recognizing your mistake and being truthful about it is very important in a relationship, because love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.

Loving someone and being loved in return gives you a feeling of security. Knowing that the love between you is real is fact enough to keep you together. You must always take care of one another throughout everything that happens, because love always protects.

You may have your doubts or your suspicions at times, but if it is true love, you must not be worried. Even if problems do arise, if you both truly love each other, you must learn to forgive with your whole heart, because love always trusts.

You must not be apprehensive about dreaming of the future. Having full faith in your relationship is what will keep it strong throughout the years to come, love always hopes.

If you understand all of these things, then your love can make it though anything, come what may. Forever and ever, love always perseveres.

Most importantly of all you must never give up, you must never lose hope, you must always trust, you must always have faith, and you must understand that for love, it is always always always worth it. LOVE NEVER FAILS.






" Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails."
1 Corinthians 13:4-8

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Understanding

There are a lot of things that I do not understand. Considerably so, I do understand that truly understanding is not always the key to understanding. Listening plays a major role in healthy relationships. Even if you do not understand what the other person means, you must understand that maybe the other person realizes that you will never understand, but wants you to show that you have the desire to understand, thus displaying that you truly care about them and what they have to say. I do not understand why men do not understand this. But I do understand that women indirectly try to make them understand without even realizing that they are not being direct. Men have a hard time admitting, and maybe even detecting their wrongs, and women want nothing more than for them to realize that they have done something wrong and apologize for it. Women want men to apologize, but they want them to have to figure out what they should be apologizing for on their own accord, with no help. Women can not simply just tell men what they have done wrong and tell them to apologize for it, because a forced apology holds no true remorse, thus men learn nothing from their mistakes. The first problem is: men have no idea that this is what women want and would much rather women just tell them what they did wrong so that they can apologize and avoid the whole, drawn out dilemma. The second problem is: with women, it does not work that way. It cannot just be easy. And I do not understand this, yet I cannot fix it within myself. Women are so discreet about what they honestly desire from men, and in turn men get condemned for not understanding. But I have come to realize that the not being able to understand one another is the reason that they keep being drawn back to the other. Men are always struggling to understand; women are always struggling to get men to understand. It is this never ending predicament that keeps us together.

And for once, if you do not understand what I am saying, it is okay, I do not expect you to, because I understand that it was more about me wanting you to listen rather than to understand.




"There's no man alive who can say that they honestly understand women and mean it. It just isn't possible, so there's no use trying. But that doesn't mean you can't love them anyway. And it doesn't mean you should ever stop doing your best to let women know how important they are to you."
Nicholas Sparks- The Wedding

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